My new found Journey

Week update

I havnt been lifting because I’m not home…but have been going swimming and chillin out in the sun…
I see lots oh skinny people…I want to look like them…I realize I’m a lil different and won’t be a size 20 but for my type of body I want to be fit.

Woot

Got the bar that holds weights and I love it. My chest arms back feel great!
No weigt lost.
I will be doing a body cleanse thing hopeing that will at least clean my body,
Mood: my body is feeling great
Inspiration: weigt lifting :D

Work out

I did my 30 min work out today but I seriusly feel like I ate wayyyyy to many snacks.
Doubting myself, confidence is already low so not sure how I’m suppose to get it high when I feel so fat.
I want to be thinner. I want to fit in normal sizes.

Rembering my goal: to fit in clothes that they sell at stores. Every store , about a 38.

Mood

Motivation: lazy…feels like no one in my life supports me. I say I’m going to do this and everyone just is like,
“You have tried this so many times, just give up”
Ya…
Still did my hour work out and ate good .. thinking about doing protien shakes since I’m trying to gain muscle too.

Weigh in

I have decided my weigh date is sundays
I may choose to take pics or not depending if I feel a change
I’ve been working out now at home and it still feels great
I may do pics or videos of it
I notice that there are many before and after but I hardly see the before workouts. I won’t post those until I loooooseee weight.
Anywho.

Weight: 268lb (I’m under 270 still and that’s what’s great I’m keeping it off!)
Mood: okay.
Inspiration: I want a hotbod lol